Crave...

I really don't know why I'm doing this, especially so early, I should just go back to sleep. But whatever. So over the weekend was my birthday...which means a year has past...which means I'm just one more year closer to dying...:) I think I'm starting to realize that people never really change, self included. So you know the feeling of wanting something for so long, maybe even dreaming about it every once and a while? But then FINALLY you get a taste of what you really wanted only to realize that you only got half of what you wanted. For example say you just really really really needed a bacon cheeseburger, you've been thinking about how much you want this bacon cheeseburger for like months.ok. So then someone comes along, knowing you want a bacon cheeseburger, and hands you just a regular cheeseburger. And you know what you eat it, why?, because you're fucking hungry!!! But after eating the cheeseburger it leaves you feeling empty inside because there was no goddamn bacon. I just want MY goddamn bacon!! WHY CAN'T I HAVE MY BACON!??!!!?? Ok so that might've been a horrible analogy but hopefully the point was made, I'm just upset because things didn't go how I'd hoped.

Oh and another thing, don't stop the party before everybody gets there...;) Thanks.

Ok I've lost the attention apan it takes for this but i'll probably return later...
peace and love to all.